I have done a 10+3 Diploma course in Computer Engineering. So naturally after my 10th standard, I had to leave all my friends from school for my college. In those days, I was not enough mature and was not able to deal with the reality of leaving them. I am one of those people who are very attached to their friends, I am sure everybody is at the age of 16. I was bitter, in despair and unsure about my decision to leave school. With my parents and sister’s help, I managed. That was one of the best decisions I took.
I often wonder now, why was I so reluctant? I make friends easily. It comes naturally to me. So why was I afraid? But I am not going to sit and ponder about it now. I am happy now. I am now pursuing Bachelor’s degree in Computers. And I can gladly announce that leaving my friends from Diploma college was not that difficult after 3 years. I have grown emotionally too with years. It’s my happy ending. 🙂
I am writing a blog post after a long time. I mostly can’t decide what I want to write and change my mind after writing for a short while. I am starting the Daily Prompt challenge with this post with hopes to start posting regularly. Today’s prompt is “Write Here, Write Now” and so I am going as much as possible in the present tense.
While writing, I am still feeling hesitant whether I should post it or not. “Would people mind my simple content?” or “Should I write a more sophisticated post?” are some of the questions circling in my mind. But I do have to start sometime and I think if I don’t do it now then I never will. I am sure I will have the same issues the next time too. I am putting my apprehensions aside and clicking the post button. 🙂
Making friends has always been easy for me. But I always had a very small set of close friends. Also they were my weakness. I get attached easily once I lose my inhibitions.
Over the years, life took over the charge and took me all over different places, making me lose my friends. It always gave me epitome of friends, but it also took me away when I made a misconception of having more time.
But in this new college, I have found a friendship which is like new bud of flower, coming with happiness of a bloom after a long time. Life is being gracious because two more years of college are left. I am going to savor it again.
Did anyone ever tell you ‘I know you will do it’? Do you wonder how is it like having someone’s faith in you, especially when you don’t have faith in yourself? It is one of the most wonderful feelings in the world.
I consider myself lucky in this. I have, at crucial points of my life, met people that let me know their faith in my ability. They came into my life at right time to help me get going again. At that time they gave me that boost of confidence and even self-esteem that I needed. Their faith in me was infectious. I did stand up and now I am at better place in my life.
Now when I am again in difficult times, I remember them again. Though they are no longer part of my life but I have their faith. They made me resilient. This time I have one more reason to keep going. Knowing those people was wonderful. I try to dole out faith because I will be happy if I made a difference. I know it is not easy but a little faith will neither cut you open nor rob you out.
What is the thing most of us want? Power. Some of us even crave it. Some of us show it with abuse. Others show it with obsession. But we already have it. We have the power to love , power to hate, power to hurt , power to heal. We also have power to teach, power to learn and power to build. We just don’t have the power to nature. No actually we have. Power to destroy it? We definitely are using it.
Chill. This is not a Diary post.
I have been encouraging writing a Diary in my friends from quite a few days. Finally Ratika started writing. She is an introvert. I wanted her to write because I found that she can’t express herself freely. So I got her write down her thoughts in a diary. She may not be able to express them to me but I want her to know her own thoughts.
I have been scribbling in my personal diary from years. I write in it all I feel. I make a point to write down specially if something is irritating me or making me angry or upset. Because I don’t want to get it out on someone else and ruin their mood too. In return we get into a fight and make things worse. The result is I am getting into less and less fights. My moods are better. And the best thing is now I know am not the reason of anybody’s foul mood. I have been told by my elders that they admire my quality that I do not answer back to them or say something out of my limit. I specially now don’t want to hurt anyone.
I find myself getting answers from my entries and itself. Many a times I stop in between because I found out what the main problem was or what was my fault in the situation. I found totally new angles to the situations.
For many of us Blog is our Diary. We write blogs for others. While Diaries are only for ourselves. People who think writing is not their cup of tea forget this. They are worried they can not write nicely. But they only have to scrawl correctly. So that they can know their own thoughts.