I have done a 10+3 Diploma course in Computer Engineering. So naturally after my 10th standard, I had to leave all my friends from school for my college. In those days, I was not enough mature and was not able to deal with the reality of leaving them. I am one of those people who are very attached to their friends, I am sure everybody is at the age of 16. I was bitter, in despair and unsure about my decision to leave school. With my parents and sister’s help, I managed. That was one of the best decisions I took.
I often wonder now, why was I so reluctant? I make friends easily. It comes naturally to me. So why was I afraid? But I am not going to sit and ponder about it now. I am happy now. I am now pursuing Bachelor’s degree in Computers. And I can gladly announce that leaving my friends from Diploma college was not that difficult after 3 years. I have grown emotionally too with years. It’s my happy ending. 🙂
I went to Nandi Hills today and visited the Lord Bhoga Nandishwara Temple. It was a beautiful temple with a rich history but what got my attention were these wheels.
These are carved stone wheels for a chariot. They are being prepared for Maha Shivratri Festival (a Hindu Festival). They will be cleaned and painted again before it. Parallelly a wooden chariot will be prepared with huge wooden wheels (much bigger than this) on which these wheels will be installed. Eight such wheels will be prepared. One can imagine how big will be the chariot. These wheels are probably hundreds of years old. It impresses me greatly how the temple caretakers have protected the heritage of this temple. Protecting this heritage should be never ending cycle and wheels are a fitting symbol with circles with no ending point.
I am writing a blog post after a long time. I mostly can’t decide what I want to write and change my mind after writing for a short while. I am starting the Daily Prompt challenge with this post with hopes to start posting regularly. Today’s prompt is “Write Here, Write Now” and so I am going as much as possible in the present tense.
While writing, I am still feeling hesitant whether I should post it or not. “Would people mind my simple content?” or “Should I write a more sophisticated post?” are some of the questions circling in my mind. But I do have to start sometime and I think if I don’t do it now then I never will. I am sure I will have the same issues the next time too. I am putting my apprehensions aside and clicking the post button. 🙂
Making friends has always been easy for me. But I always had a very small set of close friends. Also they were my weakness. I get attached easily once I lose my inhibitions.
Over the years, life took over the charge and took me all over different places, making me lose my friends. It always gave me epitome of friends, but it also took me away when I made a misconception of having more time.
But in this new college, I have found a friendship which is like new bud of flower, coming with happiness of a bloom after a long time. Life is being gracious because two more years of college are left. I am going to savor it again.
Did anyone ever tell you ‘I know you will do it’? Do you wonder how is it like having someone’s faith in you, especially when you don’t have faith in yourself? It is one of the most wonderful feelings in the world.
I consider myself lucky in this. I have, at crucial points of my life, met people that let me know their faith in my ability. They came into my life at right time to help me get going again. At that time they gave me that boost of confidence and even self-esteem that I needed. Their faith in me was infectious. I did stand up and now I am at better place in my life.
Now when I am again in difficult times, I remember them again. Though they are no longer part of my life but I have their faith. They made me resilient. This time I have one more reason to keep going. Knowing those people was wonderful. I try to dole out faith because I will be happy if I made a difference. I know it is not easy but a little faith will neither cut you open nor rob you out.
Even happiness comes with conditions apply.
Condition 1.) Don’t expect.
We all know it is said ‘Don’t expect and be Happy’ or ‘Less Expectations, More happiness’. Lets take the example of life in village in our country. It is said they are happier than us. Though I can’t really believe that I will get along with it. Also in recent study, people in Denmark are happier that in any other country. From stated reasons, one was, they had less expectation from life.
But I wonder what life will be without expectations. Hard to imagine, May be better but static. I strongly believe in having expectations. Some might say I am finding an excuse for the stated because I have expectations. Maybe yes, because it definitely got me thinking.
I can’t see my life without expectations. So I came to following terms: I can have fewer big expectations or fewer small expectations. I took my pick. You take yours. So guess what will be on the top of my list, I expect this works for me. 😉
What is the thing most of us want? Power. Some of us even crave it. Some of us show it with abuse. Others show it with obsession. But we already have it. We have the power to love , power to hate, power to hurt , power to heal. We also have power to teach, power to learn and power to build. We just don’t have the power to nature. No actually we have. Power to destroy it? We definitely are using it.